do i really need to be happy??

So let me throw down a little scenario for yall... I was out with all my roommates shooting guns having a good time just really hanging out when it hit me. I thought back to her. the girl that i recently fell for hard but she doesnt feel the same way freindzoned like usual. the thought literally lasted maybe 5 seconds but that was enough. I took my gun apart and sat there i didnt walk out to the targets with the rest of the guys to see the targets we were shooting. i pulled my sunglasses down to cover my eyes and the tears that were starting to form. why was i crying. why was i so sad. i pushed her out of my mind but it didnt matter. i let the depression in and tats all it took. i was silent the rest of the day. I had no reason to be sad at all but there i was listening to my sad music pushing everyone out of my life like i usually do

        The thought entered my mind: do i really need to be happy. looking around i was quite content where i was. i couldnt be hurt by anyone i couldnt hurt anyone i was alone just me and my music. So thats what i did for a few days. yesterday my roommates decided to intervene. they made me go play ping pong with them at our appartments club house. i opened up and actually had fun. i laughed and smiled for the first time in a while. looking back as i type this i missed out on quite a bit of fun things i could have done.  I missed out on so so much because i isolated myself i was alone.

       The answer to my question earlier is yes. yes you need to be happy. life is meant to be lived with happiness. yes my life honestly sucks. im still single probably always will be. i dont have many friends. my family doesnt care that much about me. but i still have this blog. i still have people that i know i can reach somehow through this thing. being happy or atleast positive knowing that life can and will get better if we try. Key word right there try. go and do it. make your life happy despite of all the sadness and misery around you.