been a while but im back

Today has been kind of  a weird day i'm not going to lie. i woke up on time and everything but my room mate Santiago he woke up late and missed his math class i feel kinda bad for him but only kind of... anyway i had a math test this morning or so i thought. no it was yesterday.... well crap but i did get to take my biology test which was a lot better than i thought it was. So something about me is i get attached to people fairly easy. like with a girl if she shows interest than i will show interest back and what usually happens is they find out I have dysthymia and then they leave. why do they always do that. i don;t think i will ever know. but oh well. so my realization i had this morning is really cool. so i met this girl that we both really like each other but its just early in the school year and she is new to the school. so she doesn't want to get tied down yet. which makes sense... so i thought ok i will wait for her. like continue to go on dates continue to hang out but not as much and wait till she is ready for something... well today i realized she isn't going to "wait" for you she is going to go out and date other guys but she still will like you. so i'm going to go out and date too i shouldn't have to suffer and watch her go out and have fun. i can have fun to and who knows i may find someone better. it will help my mental illness to just going out and having a good time rather than sit in my room and wait and worry. thats my call to action for everyone who is reading this silly blog. don't just sit and wait go and do and you will see your life start to happen and good things come to you.